These thoughts are unformed, the initial threads of a new line of thinking and just the musings of someone who has realised or thinks they have realised something.
Running and pushing has at some point dissociated form anger and annoyance.
In fact, should we run or train using anger and annoyance as a driving force? Are they beneficial sides to be used or are they the path to disappointment and maybe even injury?
Surely it is better to run at peace, pushing when you feel it is needed, being happy with the outcome of choosing not to push hard and realising that you really can’t fight with yourself. Is it that anger and annoyance masks the sense that you aren’t at one with yourself or is it a way of focusing on the push?
I have used anger to drive me forwards when others and myself felt that the early end of a journey is inevitable, but it never felt as fulfilling as just pushing because I knew I could. Is it the fact that I know I can push harder if needed, that I know the dark voice of doubt is actually my analysis of a situation and a tool that shows the way to proceed as apposed to showing how not to proceed?
Rambling on as I am, I have just one question….
Do you use anger and annoyance to find something that wasn’t there before when pushing yourself to your limits?
Within these posts you will find no hidden secrets, no magical formulae and no recipes for adventure. Instead you will read about one person’s journey and their realization that there are no limits other than the ones we set ourselves and it is these limits that hold us back. We pander to the softer side of our nature, seeking the easiest route through life’s. At some point we must realise that this is not the way to be true to our nature. It is as important to embrace and invite discomfort, as it is to invite challenge. Without these, how are we to grow?
There’s 6 weeks left to get everything sorted, to finish physical training and mental training.
It’s getting trickier to balance work time and training time along side publicising BarefootLeJog to make the concept of raising money for Stroke Association and raising awareness of strokes successful, and to top it off, the quite sanctuary that I call the void seems to have gained some new occupants that I don’t remember inviting!
One of these unwanted guests spread a message of doubt whilst the other one briefly acknowledges the progress made in training. Luckily, the more positive voice tends to win since training gets completed, recovery happens and damage repairs quickly.
So what left to do?
Set waypoints on a map and send to the company providing the GPS tracking
Sorting out the missing kit that is going to be essential
Mapping the entire route to allow people to organise joining me along the route
Potential accommodation for the odd bit of creature comforts and the essential showers or baths
Testing kit to make sure that it is 100% useable
Next week starts an easy week, so runs and cross training will be lower mileage or intensity, which I think my body is crying out for and I’d rather not force it towards injury by over training.
The final piece of this puzzle is preparing mentally for the extreme change in lifestyle and focusing on small steps along the way, acknowledging the inevitable pain and blocking out the optional suffering. Hopefully, I can evict the negative voice that’s invaded my void and get back to just running because it allows me to return to myself.
Thanks for everyone’s support so far. I’ll do everything in the run up to the run, and during the run, that I can to live up to the kind words and acts.